30/70

Hi!!! I'm still here!!  Without rehashing all of the sadness that my family and I have been through, I will tell you what I've learned.  But first, let me thank all of you that wrote kind notes about your thoughts and prayers for me during this difficult time.  It meant so much to me  to know that people were praying for us :)  So....THANK YOU!!! Though I wish that I could say I continued working out hard and eating well, this was not the case.  There were days that I don't remember eating :(  There were days that I stuffed my face with really greasy mess :(  There were days that I exercised until I couldn't anymore.  Of course, there were days that exercise was the last thing on my mind.  To put it in a nutshell....I'm gotta start again.  Though I wanted to speak with you all, it was impossible.  I broke all kinds of rules.  I weighed myself at the worst times.  At one point, the scale said 195. At another it said 205.  I don't know.  Between stress, TOM, and overeating, who the heck knows where I really am.  So...I am gonna guess and say that I am at 203 :(  I will update you again on Saturday :)  I'm hoping for 190 something again :) 

Hmm....taking a break from blogging has me at a loss for words :/  I have so much to say, but so little space or time to say it.  Just know; I just finished my Insanity workout with my hubby.  Yes, I did puke :/  Bless America...it was ridiculously hard.  Oh well...I'm not giving up :)  I can do this!!  I'm gonna do this!!!   In fact, I've learned a valuable lesson from my mommy-in-law's passing.  I've realized that God has entrusted me with one body and one life.  I am to be  a good steward of both.  I've rushed so much of my life trying to get to the next goal.  Today, I'm meeting today's potential.  At the end of each day, I want to be able to say that I did everything I could to truly honor my Savior and the gifts that He's given to me.  So...though I have a weight loss goal in mind, I'm focusing on every second of every day as if it's my last, for it may be.  

Thank you Jesus for LIFE!!!!

20/70...

 

As you can see, it has been a few days since I've posted.  Reassured, I have been working hard!!  This girl has not fallen off the wagon.  In fact, look to the right to see this week's progress.  Yes, I am pretty proud of that! Let me just say, this not getting on the scale thing was HARD.  It seemed as though all I thought about was weighing myself.  I wanted to know...each day.  I just couldn't wait to see what the scale would reveal. BUT.....I didn't weigh.  I didn't even take a peek.  Can you believe it?!?!!?  Anyways...I am pumped I was able to lose 4 pounds!  Time to press on for another 4 pound loss.

 

Though I rather not have to share this news, I know that it's important to confess the things that make this journey tough.  This morning, at around 2 am, my hubby and I got the call that his mother had passed away :( It was the worst news that could have come out of his mouth.  My heart hurt for him.  I wanted to be able to reverse things so that he wouldn't ever have to get that kind of call.  I couldn't. I was helpless.  All I wanted to do was make it go away.  Though the details of her death are still being discussed, it appears to have been a health related issue.  Though I want to have her here, I want nothing more than for her to continue to enjoy the prescence of Christ!  I know that she loved Jesus with all of her heart!! For that, my hubby and I are greatful!!  Please pray for my family during this time.  Though there are things in life we can't control, there are things that we can!!  

Today, I'm cherishing my family, life, health, and this journey!!! 

Happy Saturday!

17/70

Oh my word!!!! Today, I did the unthinkable.  I made goals and stuck to them!!  (INSERT HAPPY DANCE).  In fact, I woke up not wanting to do Insanity; however, I kept it to myself.    I tell ya; the morning is my weakest time :(  It's the time where it's easy for me to say, "Nah, sleep is way more important than meeting my goals."  If my brain were working at 4:30 am, I would know better.  Right?!?!  I blame it on the coziness of my bed :) 

Today was really just an average day.  Though I wanted to weigh myself, I knew that it wasn't going to do me any good.  After all, I need to push hard until Saturday's weigh in.  If I've lost weight, GREAT...it's time to lose more.  If I haven't lost as much as I'd like....NO BIG DEAL....it's not Saturday yet :)  Because this is my attitude, I kept my butt off the scale.   I confess; as a scale addict, I might have had a withdrawal.  I almost talked myself into having a little peek, but decided against it!  Yes, I am proud of that :)

Last but not least...I did Insanity not once, but TWICE.  I was really aching for a good cardio workout that didn't require me to get back in to my car.  So...I cranked up my plyo cardio video from this morning.  HOLY MOLY!!!  I don't know why I thought it'd be fun to do.  Oh well...it's done and this girl doesn't regret doing it.  It appears that I've realized that I've got what it takes, but my goal will take everything I've got!!! Great quote...huh?

Happy Wednesday night :)

16/70

Bless America!! I can't get my butt to blog on the weekends to save my life :/  With kids and a full-time job, it really is the last thing on my mind.  I do want to post something each day, if only a little something.  Though my journey isn't going perfectly, I'm learning about myself each day.  No really...I'm beginning to understand the way that I tick.  In my mind, that's part of the battle.  Here's the thing; I'm not giving up!  I have set a goal for myself that will be met by Oct 25!!!  I know; that's a random date!!  That's actually the date my family and by best friends's (<----- not sure that's a word ) families will be vacationing together!!! I want to look and feel great!  Better yet, I want to have established healthy habits for me and my family!!!  Don't get me wrong; I want to lose weight!  I want to see a certain number on the scale; however, what I want more than anything is to have a heart and mind that desire health and wellness!!  I want to enjoy getting up and sweating in the am's!! I want to be able to choose a yummy salad over pizza because my body craves it!!  You know?!?!!? 

After reading this quote, I realized that I want to be strong.  I want to be strong in mind, body, and spirit.  After all, when one area is lacking, they all do.  Losing weight is hard.  Reshaping my mind is heart.  At this point, I know that I can meet my goal, but something in the back of my mind tells me that I won't. My mind is so weak and distracted by the times that I have failed in this pursuit before.  It's like I don't want to remember the time that I lost 45 pounds by myself.  Admitting that I've done it before removes all excuse of me not being able to do it again.  I can!!!  So...today, I will move forward in my endeavor to rid myself of excess.  I will drink water when I'm hungry to make sure that I'm not really thirsty.  Lastly, I will not get on the scale 10 times a day!  Starting yesterday :) , this girl is a one day a week weigher :)  So...stay tuned for Saturday's results...

Happy Tuesday :)

12/70

So...yesterday afternoon,
I decided to go for a quick run.  I knew that I only had about 30 minutes.  Though it seemed that the night's routine would go better if I skipped the gym, I thought, "I have to put myself as a priority.  I am just as important as the people that God has entrusted to me."  So...I took my hiney to the gym and I ran a quick three miles :)  While in the locker room, I ran into 3 other ladies that, like myself, weren't feeling the gym that day.  I encouraged them with today's blog quote.  It's so true!! We NEVER regret working out, but often regret not working out.  I'm keeping this in the forefront of my mind.  Who wants to live with regret?  Not me!!! 

This morning hott hubby and I completed another round of Insanity.  Thankfully, it was the light cardio recovery day.  Which, I'm sure, means that something TERRIBLE is to come :/  Oh well...we're up for the challenge!!  At this point, all I'm thinking about is tomorrow's weigh in.  I've got lost pounds to be reflected on that scale tomorrow!  So...Insanity, you and your insane workouts better bring it :)

Happy FRIDAY!!!!

Day 11/70

Let's begin with progress pictures.  Here you go!!
** The sweat is from this morning's Insanity workout.  See!  I told you I sweat like a man :)

1st Week (Front)

2nd Week (Front)

1st Week (Side)

2nd Week (Side)

1st Week (Back)

2nd Week (Back)

Man...I love progress pictures!  For me, they keep me accountable and remind me of how hard I've worked.  At this point, there's only two; however, I swear I can already see a difference :)  I will say; though insanity is hard, it has gotten a bit easier.  HOORAY!!!  I'll be honest, I don't know how people do difficult workouts by their lonesome.  Anyways...this girl is eating well, exercising, and loving life!!! Hopefully I will have a good weight loss number to share!!!  MY FINGERS ARE CROSSED!!!
Happy Thursday!

p.s. Sorry that the pictures are dark and blurry.  These were taken this morning, by my hubby, at 5 am :)  Cut us some slack :/

10/70

So...this morning was filled with Insane workouts from Insanity!!! Ya'll...this stuff is really hard :(  I already sweat like a man, but these workouts turn on the faucet.  HOLY MOLY!!!  No really...it is absurd.  Last night, the hott hubby and I fell asleep.  We tried to take an hour break between dinner and working out.   Doing the workouts at night are difficult.  I'm not sure when to eat, when to workout, or when to get the kids ready for bed.  So...we are still trying to figure out the best time to fit everything in!!!  Just know...we ARE doing them!!! Though these dang workouts are killer...we're following through until the end. I'm excited about the results that we will see!!! To be honest, I'm already feeling stronger :)  With that said, I thought I'd post this fun pinterest picture for today.  As a therapist, I enjoy finding motivational quotes or hearing motivational stories.  I love seeing people overcome difficult situations.  Unfortunately, I often look over the times that I have overcome tough obstacles.  I guess that's the nature of the beast when you're a people helper :)  I promise; I'm getting better!!!  Anyways...this cute picture just reminded me that I can and should thrive wherever I am!!  My life is more than my circumstances or shortcomings!!!  Living is a choice!!!  No matter what, I want to be able to say that I have given life my all.  This journey is a part of that.  So...here's to being excellant in all we do!!!

Happy Wednesday!