9/70....I will not lose hope ;)

I'm still here!!!  I promise!!!  Though blogging has been something that I just couldn't get to, I'm still doing well.  I thought that I would post this goofy picture of myself to remind me that there is absolutely NO GIVING UP!!!!  This time is for real.  I've had a slip up or two, but I've gotten right back on it.  In fact, I just starting running with a group of friends again!  Running, I've missed you :)  Because I've had a broken big toe, I've had to find other ways to get my cardio in.  I've exhausted the elliptical and the stairmaster.  So...it's back to my favorite form of cardio, RUNNING!!!!  I've had a run or two by myself, but nothing to serious.  Though I haven't officially signed up, I'm training with the group to run a half :)  Guess what else?  My hott hubby and I have taken the Insanity Challenge!!!!  YUP, we are insane.  If you've never tried Insanity, it's just as it's name suggest, INSANE.  This was by far the hardest thing that I have ever done.  No really...it was hard.  Get this...it was only the fit test.  I felt so defeated.  I thought, "Man, I thought I was more fit.  I thought I was a better athlete."  Well...now I'm thinking, "I've got a long way to go."  Though I was getting a bit frustrated, I had to remind myself  that I'm doing a great thing; I'm taking my life back!!! Summer is over here in SC and I am excited.  Yes, you heard me right! For me, the summer is chaotic.  I have to juggle work, kids, vacation, birthday parties, etc, etc. When school is in, I am able to pack a healthy lunch, hit the gym twice a day, and monitor how I schedule my day.  I love the school year!!! So...this girl's Tuesday will consist of healthy meals, gym time with the hubby, and an early bed time!!!  I love it already :) 

Happy Tuesday!

p.s. I lost 2 pounds last week!  Not what I wanted, but I'll take it!!!

Day 3 and 4/70

So...how do I begin today's post?  I have so much to say in such little time/room.  I guess it would be best to explain why I'm posting 2 days on one page.  It's confession time!  Yesterday, as I was enjoying Day 3 of my vacation, I decided to be lazy...ALL DAY :(  Now, there's no problem in having a lazy day, but mine was a bit extreme.  My hubby and I hung out and watched tv....ALL DAY.  I'm not even a tv watcher.  I didn't workout, I didn't eat well...it was all downhill.  Being lazy wasn't easy for me.  I had to talk myself into doing nothing all day.  I know; it sounds weird, but it's the truth.  I made a conscious decision to do nothing.  Because this busy girl had nothing spectacular to do, I ate.  Now, I didn't fall of the wagon, but I certainly didn't eat well.  I'm learning that I eat when I'm thirsty (didn't have any water yesterday), I eat when I'm bored (thoughts of food consumed my mind for 70% of the day), I eat when I feel guilty (I knew that I should be working out, but I didn't.)  This is weird...huh?!?!  I say all this to say, I'm learning who I am!!!  This is a big step in getting to the bottom of my issues with food.  Now that I know some of my triggers, I have to aim not to be triggered...at least not as often.

So...this morning, I woke up with a new attitude.  I said, "Dang it...I'm not gonna try to workout, I'm gonna do it!"  This quote is right!  There is a difference between trying and being triumphant!!!  I've gotta put in the work :)  So...today, I started with a 5 mile run....all by my lonesome.  Though my husband could have run with me, he didn't "feel" like it.  Ya'll....if I have to do this by my dang self....I'm gonna do it!!!  I'm not waiting around for someone to "want" to do this with me!  My 'hard as all get out' run was followed by a yummy strawberry smoothie.  As I type this blog, I'm downing some cold ice water!! See how today is gonna be better than yesterday?!?!!?

Here are some things that I'm gonna do to stay on track:

• Food Journal (Count Calories)
• Drink @ least a gallon of water a day
• Blog
• Weigh ONLY once a week

There you have it!!! I've done this before and it's time to do it again!!!  As promised, here are pictures of my current weight.  Nope...not excited to post these, but it's a part of the journey.  

8/16/12 After 5 mile run

There you have it!!  Happy Thursday!!!

p.s. Pictures will be posted every Thursday!

Day 2/70

So...as I looked at my Pinterest boards for clever things to post, I came across this.  I loved it so much, I had to share!  First, let me update you from yesterday.  I decided, last night, not to go to Body Pump.  The old Corletta would beat herself up about this decision.  After all, I didn't have anything better to do.  The new Corletta, however, continued to eat well and make the best of the rest of the night.  Wait a minute...the reason that I was unable to make it to the gym is because I was TOTALLY sidetracked my my cussing 4 year old foster son :(  I spent so much energy rehashing our previous conversations that I was not feeling it.  So...I skipped it.  Fast forward to today. I made it to  my morning Body Pump!!! For those of you that have never been, IT IS A WORKOUT OUT!!! WHAT THE HECK?!?!?!  Why would something so simple be so hard?!?!?!  I was sweating like you would not believe!  I confess; I could sweat just watching others exercise.  I....Corletta B...sweat like a man :)  I digress!  I've decided that I will be hitting the gym again tonight for a spin and core class!!! Though I did get a good workout in, there's nothing like a good cardio class, at least to me.  On Day 2 of this journey, I am beginning to realize that it's important for me to get used to being umcomfortable. In fact, I just read this very same thing on one of my favorite blogs.  Getting fat is easy.  Making excuses is easy.  Getting fit and staying fit...not so easy!!! Here's to doing the right thing even when it doesn't "feel" so right!!!! Just like the picture above, there is nothing that's impossible!!!!  IM POSSIBLE!!!!

Happy Tuesday!

1/70...Headed in the right direction...

It's Day 1 of 70 days to get fit!!! Yes; I did make my own challenge :)  I'm a girl that likes challenges, goals, deadlines, and most of all REWARDS!!!!!  So...I've decided that I am giving myself 10 weeks to take my life back. Once retrieved, I will cherish it forever.  Before spilling my guts, I've noticed that there are readers of my blog that don't respond.  SHAME ON ALL OF YOU :) I would love to hear from you!!! So...don't be strangers.  Introduce yourselves!!!

Now...back to the blog!!!  I've run marathons, 1/2 marathons, 10k's, 8k's, and 5k's!! I love everything about cardio and strength training.  Let's just say, I've been that girl that's tried to out train a poor diet.  I've known that it's not possible, but I guess I wasn't uncomfortable enough.  In my BUSY life, I've made excuses for not hitting the gym as often as possible.  Let's be honest, there were times that my body craved the gym, but my mind said, "Nah...take it easy and watch some tv.  After all, you've had a long day."  It's true; most of my days are long and hard, but what feels better than a good hard sweat at the gym??!!?!  That's right...not much!!!  

I'm motivated, determined, and will not allow anything to get in my way!  I'm tired of reminiscing about the girl I once was.  It's time to get that girl back.  In fact, she never really went anywhere.  I just allowed life to slow down the drive of a natural athlete/competitor.  I am hard on myself because I know what I'm capable of.  I promise, this time around, that I will work hard without excuse, but will listen to my body.  I will enjoy every bit of the next 70 days.  With a broken toe, the Olympics, and a hectic summer behind me, I'm ready to push forward for my gold metal!!!!  Gold Metal you ask?!?!??  A hott pair of jeans before I begin trying to have a baby!!!  Yea...that's the other part of this journey.  Though many would disagree, I want to get healthy prior to trying to get pregnant :)  I know, I know...I'm gonna gain weight anyways.  Here's what I'm thinking...I want to have healthy habits formed so that when I begin that process, I will be the best version of me for my family.  After all...when mama's happy, EVERYONE'S HAPPY!!!!  Happy Monday!

p.s.  I went for a 5 mile run with my hott husband this morning!!!  Tonight...BODY PUMP :)

Alright....this is one step in the right direction...

Well...it's me again!  It's only the 1000th time I've attempted blogging about this journey.  I could look back and get frustrated, but I will choose to let my past failures fuel today's success.  Man...it's been frustrating being one that's sabotaged my progress.  Why???  Well...that is still to be determined.  I do know that I have a real control issue when it comes to food.  You may even say that I have an eating d/o.  Now, as a therapist, I know I don't have anything that can be clinically diagnosed, but there is a real issue.  When I'm stressed, I eat.  When I'm happy, I eat.  When I celebrate, I eat.  Eating isn't the problem, it's what I eat and how much that continues to keep me the same.  I LOVE TO EXERCISE!!! One of the problems is that I workout while continuing to eat poorly.  You got it; that keeps me the same weight.  I get excited when I see pounds lost, but because I celebrate with food, I end up in the same place.  THIS CYCLE HAS DRIVEN ME CRAZY for the last time!!! I ended a previous blog because I didn't want to confess that I had not lost the weight that I wanted to.  I was tired of posting the same kind of thing.  So...I stopped posting. It's my time again.  I have to work hard, but allow myself to make mistakes.  Because I am an all or nothing person, I have a very difficult time allowing mistakes to fuel me.  Though I know that I'm not perfect, I try to be.  That's another problem.  I am going to set daily, weekly, and monthly goals for myself.  It's time to track the good, bad, and indifferent.  Being honest with myself today is going to help me achieve the things I want for tomorrow.  So...follow me as I go for the goal!!!  

Valentine's Day....Day 2

 

 It's Day 2 and it's Valentine's Day! As I began to think about the day, I thought that this picture summed it all up.  During my time searching Pinterest :), I found this wonderful picture!  This verse reminds me that I have the ability to love God because God first loved me.  Christ died so that I could be presented righteous before God.  Christ presented Himself to God so that I might live!!  You know what?  It's time to live!  It's time to look at today for what it is.  Today,I am alive and able to love others and MYSELF!  I need to love what God has created!!  One way that I'm loving those around me is by loving myself.  When I've taken care of myself spiritually, physically and emotionally, I am able to love the world in a whole new way!!  I love loving!  I love giving!!  Though my day started off a bit stressful, it has all turned out to be a great day!!  Yes, I did miss my am workout to grocery shop at 4am :)  Yes, I did have to wait in line because Wal-mart's registers were all down.  Yes, I was told that I may have to leave my groceries there due to the register problem.  Yup...I am home with a feverish child.  Yes,  my husband and I did report our debit card lost (in our house ).  

YES.....

 I am on track and I'm loving life today! 

I can no longer let bumps in the road derail me from my fitness journey.  Dang...if I did, I would FOREVER be derailed.  It's time to take charge.

  Yesterday I may have said tomorrow, BUT today, I'm saying TODAY!!!  Today is my day to live!  Today is my day to love!  Today is my day to WORK HARD!!!  

Happy Tuesday!

Thanks to Pinterest.... Day 1

As one that's sick of the fluctuation in weight and as one that sweats like a man, this quote is right up my alley :)  Now, you must understand, I have recently been introduced to Pinterest.  JUST IN TIME :)  Just in time for what, you may ask.  Well...I'll tell ya.  I have a marathon coming up in 26 days.  That is exactly 3 weeks and 5 days. HOLY MOLY!  Do I feel prepared?  Not really :(  Don't get me wrong; I have been running. In fact, I have been running A TON!  Here's the thing.  I have yet to meet any of my weight loss goals.  Here's the cylce:

• Start Hard
• Lose Some Pounds
• Become Excited with Loss
• Reward Myself with a Food Celebration
• Regain the Weight Loss
• Get Discouraged
• Begin AGAIN...

I may have just had an 'ah-ha' moment!  As a therapist, I help my students identify problems in the cycle.  Well dang!  I might have just found the problem in mine.  It appears that I celebrate with the wrong thing.  I must find another way to celebrate! At this point, self control with unhealthy food is a NEGATIVE.  After looking through motivational quotes on Pinterest, I ran across this one:

YUP!  This one is right on.  In fact, I think I've been hiding behind the fact that I do hide fat well.  YUCK :(  I do keep a food journal, but there are times that only a few things get written down.  I no longer want to pretend that things are peachy.  I want to admit my flaws for what they are :)  Boy, this sure is liberating! Anyways...I have decided to post a little something each day to remind myself of my ability to end marathon training well!  So...stayed tuned, it's going to be an interesting 26 DAYS!   Here's today's rundown...so far...

1. Completed Morning Workout (3 mile run)
2. Stayed Within Calorie Range
3. Headed to the Gym for my pm workout!

See ya in the morning!